This is a bustling season in our home, more bustling this year than ever before. The local Giving Tree I help head up is endeavoring to care for 250 kids this Holiday season, the girls are busting at the seams for all things Christmas (light displays, shopping, baby Jesus arranging, and caroling all day long, cold weather hiking, Light Parades, alluvit), and I’m in the deep spot of dark days and hard decisions (just family stuff, nothing terrible, just big heart stuff) and bright spots and falling deep for our growing-up family.
Consequently, our typical M.O. of all homemade has been replaced. The girls each asked for one thing “a makeup set” and “a baby set” (one guess who asked for what one?). Neither is really makeable, and both are cheap (or, at least, the way I am doing it is, sorry girls.)
I was feeling bad about it. Feeling down about how little we spend on our kids for the Holidays. Feeling bummed I didn’t hot glue that whatever or sew that whose-it-whats-it, or bake enough cookies for the neighborhood/teachers/friends/everyoneintown. But then I dropped that.
I dropped advent. Because it’s only good and working (and filled with that deep anticipation of The Day that I want to convey), if it’s fun and exciting and not filled with money sucks and stress about “OMG WE HAVE TO GET TO THE DONUT PLACE TO SING BECAUSE IT IS SING AT THE DONUT PLACE DAY!”
So, instead, I dropped it all.
We have a few homemade gifts, a few bought gifts, and a lot of “I love you. Lets just buy each other something in February.” between Charlie and I. And guess what? My store-bought (goodwill!) stockings are mismatched and wonky, and just fine. My cookies made from a mix? taste great. And my second hand ballet slipper purchases are going to blow the girls out of the water on Christmas morning.
Today I’m drinking cinnamon coffee, contemplating healthy choices in body and heart, and feeling good about getting on track. It is merry and bright indeed.
Also, we had our first family game night. And it was amazing. Ever totally “got it” and shocked us all with her Go-Fish prowess!