I look at her, burst with Joy and can’t imagine how I ever wondered if I would love her enough. I am breaking open with love for her, light streaming through every bit and piece because of her joy. This girl is changing our world and opening me up to so much. I am falling further and further into love with her each day. I can’t believe how incredibly designed our bodies, hearts and minds are for our babies.
This is a little story for her baby book.
When Nolie was a little more than a year old I was set on only having one kid. I couldn’t imagine that my heart could ever expand enough to love anyone else as much as I loved her. I felt wholly closed off to the idea. Then one Sunday we were sitting in church and they were dedicating a little girl named Everly (A name that had been on the list for Nolie) and I just burst into tears. Her Mom said that they named her Everly because she had been in her heart forever. I completely lost it and felt like for the first time another little girl was laid on my heart with the name Ever. Funny thing is that the plan was to name her Ever Brave, then we got pregnant and the name didn’t feel right, so we settled on Harbor but once she was born she was Ever through and through and more than that she was my Joy and made me overflow- her name will always serve as a reminder to me to hold onto Joy. I love my sweet Ever. And love having two girls with names that are markers of what I hold dearest- Anticipate Grace and Hold onto Joy. Grace and Joy are two attributes I hope to always hold tight.